Exercise 1: Healing Love Meditation
(This is an excerpt from a University Of Metaphysical Sciences course at www.umsonline.org,
please feel free to visit the school website)
With your eyes closed, and in a comfortable position, take two or three very deep cleansing breaths. Visualize a beautiful cloud of emerald green light surrounding you. As you breathe in, you take this healing energy into your lungs, your cells, and into your heart. Concentrate upon your heart a moment, as you allow the emerald green light to cleanse away any negativity which may have caused you to feel pain.
With a deep breath, allow the light to carry away any fears you may have about love. Be willing to release the fear of feeling love. You need do nothing else except breath and hold the intention to heal yourself of the fear of love. Just be willing to be healed, and God and the angels will do everything else.
Take another deep breath, as you become willing to release the fear of being loved, including the fear that if you are loved, you could be manipulated, tricked, used, abandoned, rejected, persecuted, or in other ways, hurt. Ask for the courage to be loved and risk pain again.
With another deep breath allow all the fears from any lifetime to be lifted and carried away. Now, allow the light to cleanse you of any fear you may have about giving love. With a deep breath, be willing to release the fear that if you give love, you could be controlled, abused, deceived, betrayed, maimed, or hurt in any way. Allow these fears to be lifted completely, and feel your heart expanding to its natural loving state. Allow yourself to release any old unforgiveness you may be harboring toward those who seem to have hurt you in a love relationship. Become willing to release unforgiveness toward your mother, father, other parental figures, siblings, childhood friends, adolescent friends, first loves, those whom you dated and loved and anyone with whom you lived or married.
Allow all of your hurts and disappointments associated with love to be cleansed and fully carried away. You don’t want the hurt, you don’t need it, and with another deep breath, it is lifted to the light where it is transmuted and purified. Only the lessons and the pure essence of love continue since that is the only thing that was ever eternal and real within each of your relationships. Now, with another deep breath, allow the light to cleanse you completely.
Be willing to release any unforgiveness you may hold toward yourself connected to the issue of love. Be willing to forgive yourself for betraying yourself, for ignoring your intuition, or for not looking out for your highest interests. Give yourself a hug, either in your mind or with your arms. Reassure your inner self that you will never again engage in self-betrayal. You now commit to following your intuition and discernment, so that you could never be or stay in any relationship which would hurt you. Fully release the unforgiveness for any mistakes which you think you may have made in any relationship, including your relationship with yourself. With another very deep cleansing breath, feel yourself healed, whole, and ready to enjoy the love that is the truth about who you really are.